He is moving, He's breath is upon me

He is moving, He is unmasking my shame and fears and restoring my broken heart. He is moving. He shows me His hand and I finally want to take it. He shows me what real beauty is and tells me no mirror can ever reflect what His eyes see in me. He brings me to my knees and breaks down walls I've spent years building. He fought off my old demons and showed me a road of shimmering gold. He washed my mascara smeared face with His blood and called me daughter. He is moving and I can no longer fight it, I don't want to anymore. I'm caught in the fire of His mercy and it is melting the residue of this world from my very being. He is moving.

What an extremely successful Sunday. :) Started off with church, which is always wonderful. I love New Beginnnings. Then, I went grocery shopping, then I studied, ran a couple errands, took a power nap, ran a couple miles, did an abe ripper video, clean the whole apartment, did laundry, and painted some picture frames, now I am blogging and updating my schedule for the next week because I am slightly ridiculous when it comes to planning. Whewww that was a lot of stuff. I can get so much done when I don't spend 70% of my day at the office, which is unavoidable at times, but that is alright. I really do like my job, I just like having a life as well.

Busy week ahead, but the Lord is Good. Amen.

I am happiest when I'm outside and it's just You and me.

My latest theory on boys & iphones

I believe this will be a continuation from last night's post.. I'm just feeling it. Here is my theory on why boyfriends are like iphones. I know you are excited to here this one. Okay, so I don't have a super cool phone, it calls, sends text messages and I can check facebook. That is all. No apps, nothing to make it out of the norm and that is just fine for me. I don't wake up in the morning and hate my life because I can't check email via my phone. BUT when I get around my friends and all of them are typing away on their little iphones and surfing the internet and checking emails and grades and playing music and all the other crazy things you can do now, I kind of start to wish I had an iphone. I start to wonder if I'd be happier if I had an iphone.

Then I think, well I can't do anything about it until my contract is up which is almost another year and I know by then a much cooler version of the iphone will be out, so if I can just be patient I can get something a whole lot better than what is out right now. Boyfriends are the same way. I don't think too much about it until I'm placed in the middle of a bunch of couples and am forced to think about my lacking in that area. Then, of course I always come to the conclusion that my single time isn't up yet and when it is I will get someone way better. Not to mention I am the pickiest person on the planet when it comes to dating someone so the next one is going to have to be God sent. Okay, I think I got it all out this time. :) Sorry for the rambling.

Can I be just a girl for a minute?

I need to be a girl for just a minute. I don't typically write stuff like this because..well, mainly I feel dumb when I read it days later, but whatever. As the later part of my college years are well underway, all of my best friends have begun the pairing off process and are starting to get into serious relationships. Me, on the other hand, single, no prospects. You know it really wasn't even a thought or concern, and rightfully so, until fairly recently. Truthfully I can say yes I am happy and I am not particularly looking for someone to date, but there are those nights where everyone is paired off and I find myself in a drift of thoughts from previous relationships and the giddy joy from feeling loved by another. Luckily, I can snap myself out of it and hope that I don't say something sarcastic about annoying PDA or other comments that would come from a bitter lonely person. Which, I don't want to sound like because I don't consider myself all that lonely.

It's not that I long for someone or need someone to make me happy, it's more so that I miss being a girlfriend and getting to be a part of someone else's life in that way. I miss having a best friend that I loved so much it made me feel ridiculous sometimes. I miss knowing that at the end of a bad day I was a phone call away from an "i love you" and a good laugh. I look forward to finding that again, whenever that may be, but I'd be lying if I said I never think about it or hope that it's coming soon. Of course, I shouldn't waste time on such thoughts but again I am a girl and that's how we are. So, sorry you had to read my more emotional side. Venting feels good every now and then.

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