Faithful One, You've overwhelmed my heart.

I've been resistant to blog this, but to my humble surprise somehow in the course of the last month I did in fact have the moment I had specifically asked God for. Never in my wildest dreams did I actually think it would happen, nor did I see it coming so soon. It was one of those nights where you know God is there because it's just too right, too simple, too beautiful to understand. This boy took what I knew of the dating game, and love and placed before me wholeness, holiness, grace, and a peaceful covering. He never once forced my love or fought my bucking resistance. He was sweet, confident and caring. He whispered words of life over me as I tried to convince him my baggage would be too much to carry, that my wounds were too deep to do this right.

"You're wrong," he told me. "God doesn't work that way. You will have a good life and those things you think make you wrong for this, are yours to drop whenever you want too. And when you're ready whether it's tomorrow or a year from now I will be waiting for you."

We were sitting on a park bench by a lake in my neighborhood. I remember as he spoke so close to my face that our foreheads were touching. He had me wrapped up in his arms and my legs were draped over his knees like a little girl. I felt so taken care of and yet so full of emotions that I had to close my eyes to sigh and before I could control it, a smile broke across my face. I sat speechless, "this guy," I remember thinking, "he's the one I've been waiting for."

Yes I realize I just revealed a very intimate moment that he and I shared but honestly I want other girls to understand that God has a way of mending years of unsureness, of cold walled up hearts and damaged mindsets in a matter of moments. It was not the fact the I have a new boyfriend that healed me, because I could have had a boyfriend a long time ago, it was coming to the conclusion that the love I thought I knew was not the same love that I was made for giving or receiving. It is genuine and honest and life giving and pure. It has no comparison or doubt. The Lord is forever faithful. Walk in that friends.